Happy New Year’s Eve!!
Hello everyone. I just wanted to make a last post this year to thank all of you who read my blog or have just stopped in to take a quick peek around. I realize there are a lot of unfinished things on here that I began this year or maybe even longer ago, but that’s how life is for me…I don’t always finish what I start.
When I was a kid, my mom used to tell me I never finished what I started so it became something I have heard in the back of my mind ever since. It was not always true, but the notion did cause me to feel guilty whenever I did not finish something I began. I know many people besides myself who struggle with this. Oh except for maybe the “type A” personalities or the “perfectionists” (of which I used to pressure myself to be.) But through the last 22 years of living with a “type B” personality, the more laid back kind of person that my husband is, I have come to realize that I think I have always been one, too. I just didn’t feel I could allow myself to be one when I was surrounded by those type A people who used to be in my life. Don’t get me wrong; I still love them, but I will never ever be one, and my acceptance of this has lifted a huge weight off of me. I think everyone should be who we are meant to be and not worry about trying to be like who we may admire or compare ourselves to; comparing ourselves to others really is a waste of energy.
Last night I was telling my husband that I feel like I didn’t accomplish much this year (still struggle with the “I’m not good enough LIE”,) but then this morning I realized that in the past year I have been building friendships that I think will last the rest of my life, I have done as much art as I desired to do, I have read 128 books (26,680 pages) this year which is crazy! I set my goal at 75 books so this was a surprise! Granted some of those were children’s books when I was checking them out from the library and getting ideas about picture books, but hey! A book is a book…in my book! 😉 So all in all I think it has been a pretty good year!
I worked out a lot, but got a little lax in that area in the last few months. However, my daughter’s school is relocating to a building within walking distance of the gym I go to which will be great for the rest of the school year. After that I may not keep the membership since I won’t technically have to go to town for her next year. She graduates this coming May! I am very proud of her. In the meantime I will still use the gym on the days we go and work out at home the rest of the time.
I find it hard to structure my time, however, when I don’t have to go anywhere for anything in particular. I just get myself so distracted so easily! When I was homeschooling the kids, we had some structure but it wasn’t really strict; as long their work was done and they were learning, I was happy. And they made it through just fine. So what is next for me once she learns to drive and can go do what she wants to do – either work or go to community college or both – I’m not really sure yet??
I may just take a year to spend as much time with my sweet husband as possible when he isn’t working. I may try to get back to some writing projects I have started. I may get more serious about really working on the picture book ideas I have. Or I may just bask in the sun on nice days, sip on some tea, and read a great book (maybe I’ll make it to 200 books some year in the future.) I do love my solitude!
What I have learned in the last few years is to slow down in life. I think of life as a marathon, not a sprint. We had to learn to crawl and walk before we could run; now that I am on the other end of my life’s spectrum, it is time to learn to walk and crawl again. Some days my body won’t let me do anything except barely walk anyway! HA, HA!
So my dear friends I am ending 2016 feeling thankful for God, my family, my friends, our health, and all of the love that has been given me this year. I pray I gave as much or more than I received. May 2017 be another year of love, joy, peace, and sweet friends and family to cherish for everyone. God bless you all!
Have a wonderful day, and give someone you love a big hug! 🙂